Why the hell did I leave KU for community college? Yes, it may be a shit ton cheaper but that seems like the only upside. I hate my inability to be decisive. I make so many shitty decisions and mistakes that just fuck me over. At school all I see are stupid fucks from my high school who couldn’t make anything of themselves. I feel like I’ve let myself down. I know I am capable of so much more. I probably let my parents down too. They probably wish they could still say their son made the dean’s list at a university. On top of all that bullshit I am STILL unable to find a job. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? What is wrong with our society that I cannot find a part time job, but every other stupid fuck is babbling their damn way into every establishment. My parents do nothing but bitch about how money is tight and how they need me to pay. To that I respond lemme just pull the money out of my ass. I need a damn job and I need shit to fucking work for me for once. I am so done. I just had a hardcore cry. FUCK FAILURE, FUCK THIS, FUCK THAT. FUCK YOU. i need therapy.